Disappointment

Why do we let it happen? How did it happen? Why did I let myself get this way? All the questions that run through a girls mind when she likes a guy. I'm so sick and tired of being strung along. I'm ready to move on and be loved. I wanna be loved for what I am and who I am. I'm tired of going day to day wondering if I'm gonna hear from him, or who he is with, or how he talks to another girl, if she feels as special as I do when he calls me or talks to me. Jealousy is a hideous beast and it is so hard to tame. I want to feel safe and secure in the fact that he will respond to my text messages an he will keep a damn conversation with me. So I'm moving on. I'm making the decision that I deserve better. I deserve more than you have to offer me. You don't deserve me or my love. I love my life and I just want happiness and love. I want companionship, I want laughter, security, trust, and the bond. I want to smile when he walks into the room. Why is it so damn difficult? I will find happiness and I will be loved. Good things come to those who wait!!